Tag: family

  • Downsizing: A Generous Interpretation

    I haven’t written anything in a few weeks.

    We moved.

    I’ve been busy.


    Technically, we moved a month ago.

    But apparently there is a significant difference between moving your stuff and finding somewhere to PUT your stuff.

    We moved from a big house
    with a bigger shop
    to a smaller house
    with a smaller shop.

    We brought everything.


    Okay.

    Not everything.

    We downsized.

    We were actually quite proud of ourselves.

    If we found something and neither of us knew what it was, what it did, or what it might conceivably be used for sometime in the future, we threw it away.

    Ruthless.

    And if we discovered we owned five of the exact same very useful thing?

    We sold two.

    Sometimes.

    So really, I don’t know what more could reasonably have been expected of us.


    It turns out moving to a smaller house is considerably easier if you own less stuff.

    We discovered this approximately three weeks too late.

    George Carlin once pointed out that everybody else’s stuff is sh*t, while your sh*t is stuff.

    I understand this now on a spiritual level.


    Because for the past month, Hubby and I have been opening boxes and having conversations like:

    “Why do we have this?”

    “I don’t know.”

    “Do we need it?”

    “Probably not.”

    “Can we throw it away?”

    Absolutely not.

    It’s our stuff.


    And apparently our stuff is very important.

    Even the stuff we haven’t seen since 1999.

    Even the stuff we forgot we owned.

    Even the stuff whose original purpose can no longer be determined by modern science.


    So we shuffled stuff.

    Stacked stuff.

    Reorganized stuff.

    Bought things to hold stuff.

    And, in a particularly impressive display of human stupidity, moved stuff out of the way so we could make room for other stuff.


    But today, I am pleased to announce:

    THE BOXES HAVE BEEN SORTED.

    Every single box in the house has been opened, examined, judged, and dealt with.

    Mostly.


    There are, of course, a few boxes clearly marked:

    MY STUFF

    HIS STUFF

    IMPORTANT STUFF

    and the always useful:

    STUFF WE ARE NOT CURRENTLY PREPARED TO MAKE A DECISION ABOUT.


    But those boxes are now semi-neatly organized in a large storage closet.

    Behind a closed door.

    Which, in my opinion, means they no longer exist.

    So I am officially declaring the move OVER.

    I am celebrating.


    Hubby, apparently, is not.

    He still has “boxes to go through” in the shop.

    But those are his boxes.

    In his shop.

    A separate building.

    Behind another closed door.

    I have decided they don’t exist either.

    Downsizing complete.


    Welcome to the lake house.

    Pull up a chair…

    I’ll make the margaritas!

    -Pattie

  • The View From Here

    The View From Here

    I recently spent a few days relaxing at the beach.

    And somewhere between the dunes and the ocean…

    I realized something.

    The beach isn’t what changed.

    I did.


    When I picture the perfect beach,

    I think of peaceful joy.

    The beautiful view.

    The sound of the waves.

    Sea birds gliding overhead.

    Cool water on my feet.


    Then reality showed up.

    If getting to the beach requires hiking through the dunes…

    it’s too far.

    If the walk back to the restroom requires prior planning…

    we’ve crossed the line from vacation to endurance event.

    If cars are driving up and down the beach…

    it’s too trafficky.

    If I have to carry my own refreshments…

    I will not be refreshed.

    If it’s raining…

    it’s too wet.

    If it’s sunny…

    it’s too hot.

    If everyone around me is laughing, splashing, and having the best day ever…

    it’s too loud.

    And if all of those things happen on the same beach…

    I’m going back to the hotel.


    And somewhere between the ocean…

    and the hotel…

    I realized something.

    I just love the version of the beach that comes with

    a big beach umbrella,

    comfortable lounge chairs,

    someone wandering by every so often asking,

    “Would you like another drink?”

    “Can I bring you lunch?”

    and absolutely no requirement that I earn the view.


    Apparently…

    my idea of the perfect beach changed

    right along with me.

    These days,

    ‘m less “beach person”…

    and more “beach resort person.”


    And honestly…

    I’m okay with that.


    After surviving cancer twice,

    I’m learning that choosing the comfrotable chair

    isn’t giving up.

    Sometimes…

    it’s simply self-care.

    And I have a feeling

    we could all use

    a little more of that.

    -Pattie

    P.S. Tell me about your perfect beach day. What does it absolutely have to include?

  • The Wisdom of Shade

    The Wisdom of Shade

    I used to be a hunter.

    And now I am a gatherer.

    At least as it applies to amusement parks.


    I think it’s because I’m getting older.

    I’d like to blame something else.

    But aging has no alibi.


    Plan a trip to X 

    to see Y

    and flawlessly execute the plan.

    I found the game,

    and then I took it down.

    Hunt complete.


    The young people amusementing themselves with us

    are still hunters.

    Each day they planned the big game of the day,

    And set out to capture the death-defying roller coaster of choice.

    The ROC. 


    Their logic was not to hunt in the picked-over concrete forest

    but to seek out the untouched land. 

    Getting to the game before the other hunters was urgent.

    And of course it was always the furthest away.


    Being reasonably responsible people,

    Hubby and I did not buy fast passes for six.

    And for the same reason,

    we stayed at a three bedroom four-and-a-half bath VRBO

    instead of one of the park hotels offering early entry.

    We learned a long time ago:

    no matter how many people you pack into a hotel room,

    there is only one bathroom per room.

    And one bathroom divided by six people

    equals misery for five at any given moment.


    So: no early entry, no fast pass.

    The hunters still wanted to beat the crowd.


    The death march began the very instant

    our feet hit the parking lot pavement.

    The mission was to walk as fast as we could

    on the pre-determined straightest path to the ROC.


    No sightseeing.

    No people watching.

    No dilly-dallying.

    Not even a bathroom stop,

    if the hunters had their way.

    But mine is a 69-year-old post-chemo bladder.

    It always gets its way. 


    None of them are under 5’8″.

    They are young and fit,

    with powerful slender legs

     and long, easy strides.

    They were hunting with passion.


    I was none of those things.


    So I raced along,

    double-stepping as fast as my little feet –

    including the injured big toe –

    would carry me.


    That first death march

    my watch clocked a mile and a half

    before we reached the hunting ground.

    And that was in the smaller park.


    I arrived exhausted,

    sweating profusely,

    and to be honest – pretty put off.

    (Southern for: not at all pleased.)


    The rest of the day was a remake of that first death march,

    ride after ride after ride.

    Hunters hunt.

    That’s what they do.


    Their hunting went on.

    My thrill did not.


    Without  their big game to direct my focus,

    I started looking around for what would entertain me.

    I realized what I wanted was to

    enjoy a cool breeze,

    watch the little kids’ shining faces

    getting their pictures made with in-character characters,

    sit and have a drink in the shade,

    admire the beautiful scenery, and

    smell the metaphorical roses.

    I had become a gatherer.


    I was torn, to be sure.

    I wanted the S’kiddles to have a great time.

    And while I knew a great time,

    in the hunter’s sense,

    wasn’t going to happen for me,

    I didn’t want the death marches to become the death of me.


    So instead of chasing their ROC,

    I let the pack go on ahead of me.

    With two men over 6’5″,

    they were pretty easy to use as landmarks.


    And I looked around as I walked.

    I saw things I’d had no idea were there.

    A bathroom, up the hill to the right.

    A water bottle refill station, just to the left.

    A Starbucks, tucked into a cute little alcove up ahead.

    None of it was their ROC.

    All of it was exactly what I needed.


    I used to search for the ROC

    looking neither left nor right,

    and hunt it down.

    Now I was noticing shade.


    Hunters hunt.

    Gatherers gather.

    And it turns out,

    somewhere around mile two of a death march,

    gathering looks a lot more like wisdom than giving up.

    -Pattie

  • What I’m Celebrating Today

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    I’ll be honest.

    This Fourth of July has been harder for me than most.

    It’s difficult for me to celebrate

    when so much about our country

    feels angry, divided, and fragile.


    But maybe Independence Day isn’t

    a celebration that we’ve arrived.

    Maybe it’s a celebration that 250 years ago,

    a group of imperfect people

    dared to imagine something

    the world had rarely seen before:

    a nation where the government’s authority

    would come from its people

    instead of a king,

    inherited privilege,

    or any single religious authority.


    They didn’t get everything right.

    Some of the freedoms they declared were not for everyone.

    Some injustices were left untouched.

    Others they simply failed to see.


    But generation after generation,

    Americans have kept pushing this country a little closer

    to the promises made in 1776.

    Not perfectly.

    Not all at once.

    Sometimes loudly.

    Sometimes painfully.

    But forward.


    Our country still has flaws.

    It always will,

    because it is made up of human beings.


    Yet when we choose kindness over contempt,

    listening over shouting,

    and the common good over personal victory,

    we honor the very spirit of this American experiment.


    We remind ourselves that a more perfect union

    was never meant to be a destination.

    It was always meant to be the work.


    I still believe this country is at its best

    when we remember that freedom – real freedom –

    isn’t just about protecting our own rights.

    It’s about protecting everyone’s rights.


    So today, that’s what I’m celebrating.

    I hope your day is filled with family, friends,

    and a few quiet minutes to reflect on the country

    we’re still trying to become.

    -Pattie

  • MAY FLIES IN JUNE — THAT IS A HARD NO

    MAY FLIES IN JUNE — THAT IS A HARD NO

    OH MY BONE at the flies.

    Is the lake broken?


    The black flying flies.

    They are everywhere.

    They do not stop.

    I am convinced they exist for one purpose and one purpose only:

    To torment me personally.


    Let me tell you about May flies.

    They are very special flies that live in the lake as regular bugs for two whole years.

    Then one day they explode out of the water and become flying bugs.


    I know these are facts because Mama told me.

    Do I fully trust Mama’s explanation?

    Not entirely.

    She also says I don’t need to bark at suspect squirrels.

    So her judgment is questionable.


    There are hundreds of them.

    Thousands of them.

    Possibly millions.

    Maybe even billions.

    I have not counted them all because I am only one dog.

    But I have counted enough

    to know I am right.


    They hide in the grass.

    They hide in the trees.

    They hide on the boathouse.

    They hide on the windows.

    Basically, if a thing exists,

    there is probably a fly sitting on it.


    Then the moment you find the perfect place to squat…

    HERE THEY COME.

    Like somebody blew a whistle.


    Suddenly they are flying around your head.

    Flying in your ears.

    Landing on your legs.

    Making you question all your life choices.


    And let me tell you something else.

    They smell bottoms.

    I have seen it.


    Now, a good bottom sniff is important.

    To dogs.

    That is a professional courtesy.

    A respectful exchange of information.

    Flies have no business participating.

    They have not earned that privilege.


    The worst part is the windows.

    They stick to the glass.

    I go over to investigate.

    They jump off.

    Then they fly directly at my face.

    Which feels aggressive.

    And possibly personal.


    Mama explained that after spending two years in the lake,

    they only live for a day or two.

    A DAY OR TWO.

    Imagine waiting two years for anything.

    Then spending your entire adult life being annoying.

    That is a terrible life plan.


    I reported this situation to Management.

    Management said,

    “They’re just mayflies, Sassy.”

    Which is exactly the sort of thing Management says

    when they have no intention of fixing the problem.


    Also, I have one very important question.

    If these are MAY flies…

    Why are they still here in JUNE?

    I am beginning to think nobody is enforcing the rules.


    The only good thing about mayflies is that eventually they die.

    Which leads me to believe that even the all-powerful one—

    you know, D-O-G spelled backwards—

    has reached the end of His patience with them too.


    Until then,

    I will continue my patrols,

    file my complaints,

    and conduct all outdoor business under protest.

    Sincerely,

    Sassy 🐾

    A Very Good Girl Under Attack